"I lost my faith in God, somewhere back around '89 when my old man came home piss drunk smelling like a whore and I saw my mother cry yea, that's the day that God died that's the day I realised that it's all on me, and I escaped in the Music
years past and Mumma said 'boy that's not how a man should be' after twenty years, we walked away, but that night still comes to me
when i'm standing in the mirror face to face with God, with the Devil and my Father and myself we're all one, but I don't believe in any of us.
And I say 'it's just you and me now it's you and me it's you and me you old son of a bitch it's you and me
Because my father's gonna die alone, with the TV on and I don't wanna die alone, with the TV on
THERE'S STILL NO GOD THERE'S STILL NO GOD THERE'S STILL NO GOD THERE'S STILL NO GOD THERE'S STILL NO GOD. " Another Breath - God Complex
Another Breath were...breathtaking haha But that, that song their final song which was screamed, without a microphone to amplify the voice was one of the most amazing moments I've ever witnessed pure hurt, pure pain without hope of redemption to see in his eyes how hopeless, how 'tragic', how lost & alone he felt beneath the gaze of the sun was just, wow Watching how he stopped, and held his head in his hands by the window in the middle of it all.
Because after everything after all we've been through, after all the abuse, after all the let downs, after all the empty bottles found after all the nights spent building excuses into castles just to numb away the truth
HOLY SHIT. HOLY SHIT. HOLY SHITTTTTT! I'M SO FUCKING EXCITED. tomorrow Another Breath play my Uni home town Stoke-On-Trent excited is a lesser word for what im feeling right now. I fucking love this Band, and Ted is the only person i readily internet stalk haha.
When I was 16, and the world was falling apart around me, these and Give Up The Ghost gave me a message of hope. This song in particular, the first song i ever heard by them, struck a chord in my soul.
driving west. Burning daylight and gasoline. I know now what we're running from. I know why we scream. Fleeing fate, growing up, getting old. As if by running we won't have to get on with our lives. Lives that we don't want. Tried and tested failures. Production line suicide. Just like all the dead that came before us. We've been lied to. Things will never be ok. So I'm running away. I'm running away from everything. You can have it all. It means nothing to me. I'm running away from nothing. It's the nothingness in life that scares me to death. I'm choking in this town. Dying. Getting closer ever day. We're running away from stagnation and pain. We want more than wasting time waiting for something that will never come. We want more than your dead end living. We want more than your broken dreams. We want more than living because dying is the only other choice
Then of course there was Diesel and Gunpowder, a song of the most profound optimism in the face of suicide. The lyrics are brilliant, life affirming in utmost glory.
Have you ever felt so alone that you wanted to just start again? And you were sure if you could disappear then no one here would come find you? Have you ever felt worthless because no matter how hard you tried you could never live up to the standards that were set by people who could never understand you? All they said were words designed to manipulate you. Have you ever been so afraid that you might not have the strength to hold on 'til you the morning to face another day with eyes trained to see the ugly because they've only been shown pain? I've spent so many nights hopeless, lifeless, walking lost, looking to pick fights with diesel trains. There has to be a better answer. There has to be a better way than this. I've spent so many nights staring down the barrel of the most selfish decision I ever could have made. There has to be a better answer. There has to be a better way than this. When things are at their worst try hard to remember: This struggle we must all endure is a test of strength A lesson in appreciation
no-one said this would be easy, what good's a fight you're gauranteed to win
Those bad days, those fucking evil days, define the days we live for
I must remember that darkness is a canvas, where light will paint the dawn when you die you don't come back,
there's no second chance
when you die it's over
there's no second chance.
Then they wrote a concept album the search for God and how we are all actually God? FEATURING A SONG BASED AROUND JEAN-PAUL SARTRES NAUSEA ONE OF MY FAVOURITE PHILOSOPHICAL CONCEPTS? I MEAN FUCK!
I'm going to mosh like a badman probably cry and then tell Ted how much him and his band mean to me. it's going to be insane
